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you call me white trash..but you do not know me

how can you say such harsh words

im a woman with feeling and a heart

you judge me for what i wear what i feel what i say and what i think

i know i am not always right

but dont judge me because i am wrong,

you say you need time ,i say i need my freedom

what is freedom ...it is not here with you my freedom was gone when i met you

you took it all away

i told you stop you did not listen to me

you took my pride and left me to die

now i have a child

my life is ruined because of you ....you almost killed me but i am living proof that you cannot kill the willing to live

you can take my life

you can take my pride

but you cannot take my life

love is like a river,will cut a new path when ever it meets a obstacle my love for you has met so many obstacles it is no longer fun....my love for you is like a river so peaceful and outgoing

you are my river of life my sunshine mine all mine now take my heart and dont let it slip away for fate is not so far away

just take my keys and open it up do not hurt or break my love

in my deapest shadows you was there,in my hurt and pain you was there,when i felt as though i couldnt go on ,you kept me safe

you are my shoulder to lean on,you are my security,my ray of sunshine,my life,my wisdom

you are my love





you are my best friend joey

you say you are my friend,but why do you lie to me? you say you care!but you do not...you turned your back on me..lied and hurt me

with friends like you who needs enemies

i want to be loved for who i am,i wantt o be close to you,and not hurt,i want to cry and you wipe my tears away

do not agitate me for i will run and hide

my heart cannot take no more pain

i cannot cry no more

talks cheap for such a shallow mind,you talk your shit and think your mine,i have news for you,you were never mine

nicolas



nicolas is my son

he is gone now

i cannot find him

baby were are you at?

can you not hear my crys for you!

moma misses you so much...



i sit and wonder were you are.

if you are eating

if you sleep good with no bad dreams..

i wounder who you call mommy now

i wonder if you think of me.

i wounder why your dady has taking you from me

i was good to you

you had a bath.you had clothes on your back .

and food on the table

what did i do

i was never mean to you

never beat you

never hurt you

...i dont understand why he took you from me

i am a good mother

and i would do anything for you

and he knew that

i wish he was here to see the pain he has caused me and your sister

i wish you was here home with me

you dont deserve to be sleeping in cars and were ever you can sleep

you deserve to be here with me and your sister safe

from all harm....baby i hope you are ok and i know one day i will see you again

cannot handle this

the pain is so real

the hurt is so real

my heart how it hurts

i cant sleep

i cant eat

i cant even walk

when i close my eyes i see you

when i open my eyes you are there

i think about what we used to have

the way we would talk,it would be about nothing

at all but it was special in it's on little way

the way we would take midnight walks in the dark

i was so scared but you was there to hold my hand

the way we would laugh at each others jokes

what has happened....

we are no longer as one

our lives are seperated by everything

i wish i could turn back time

but i know it would no good

for i couldnt trust you.although i loved with all my heart..

the good the bad it is all gone but you do know it is your falt

i hate you

and always will

i hope someone causes you as much hurt and pain as you have caused me

you knock me up and left me there

swore when he was born he wasnt yours

you demanded a dna

when it came back and he was yours

you swore to me yoou would take care of him

you took care of him alright ...you took him from me and fled

i cannot find you,i search everyday, were is my son and why did you take him away

he is just a child with out the only one he knows

he has been gone a month and 4 days

i am just a phone call away

i sit by the phone and ask myself why

i know you could care less if i died

you know i am worried about nicolas

do you care?

i sit everynight and cry myself to sleep

i stay on phone on the time trying to locate you

i have run my bill up sky high

do you ever wonder how nicolas feels

dont you think he wonders were i am at

does he ever ask for me ?

do you tell him everyday his moma loves him

and cares so much for him?

or do you tell him lies...

how many times has he cryed for me

i wish you cared for him as much as i care for him

but i know you are just mad at me

but that is not an excuse dont take your anger out on him

he is just a little boy

you idiot do you know what this will cause him

dont you realize yes you are hurting me but you are hurting him more

you never cared for the other two kids you have by your ex wife

why do you want mine?

all you want to is hurt me

quess what you did

you hurtme bad and really driving me insane

but you do not care

i hate you for what you have done

i will never forgive you

go to hell and dont care down there

i have been found n the darkness...

a friend has came and found me ..but why i am no body i am just me? i do not understand why do i matter so much to you

i can breath now...i have you in my life...

how can you treat me like you love me...when all you do is hate me ....i do not understand this feeling i have.....you have took it all...... my life,my hope,my dreams,why? please tell me if you cannot love me ....why do harm me....